When I was younger, I learnt a very important lesson; Never involve people that are happy in your problems because it steals their joy and their happiness, replacing it with the very problem that has ruined your day and sometimes your life. Over the years, this philosophy has held precedence in my life.
Sometimes, I look back on my life and see moments where I could have opened my pandora's box and let people in to help me make difficult decisions but that would have created a spider web of problems involving everyone I know and thereby creating more problems than solving the one problem that had me down. People like to claim that talking fixes problems but what if talking actually starts a chain event of problems that bind people to the problems that we have been experiencing? What if the ones you love are the ones who will take the fall? What if I do not want anyone to get entangled in something that should inevitably lead to character or life changes that would go unnoticed by everyone around me as they went about their lives without the worldy cares that run mine? These questions only haunt me day in and day out and if for a split second I felt that my life would be simpler by opening my mind and telling everyone around me what was eating away at my being I would do it. Alas, I know the truth now and it hurts even more than it did when I first realized it.
The truth is this, Never involve people that are happy with their lives, stealing joy is more criminal than actually lying and running around wearing a perenial smile on ones face. I firmly believe this and will take it to my grave, unfortunately, I will be plagued with this problem till I am dead but this is my fight and my fight alone. I will not steal someone's happiness with my slew of problems and this I know now more than ever.
It is time once again to sharpen my blade. War is around the corner and I am not as ready as I should be. But then again, who is really ready for life.
Mood : Confused
Confidence : Shattered
Music : Gary Jules - Mad World
To-Do : Start writing more to clear my mind
2 comments:
Tuesday, July 01, 2008
Tuesday, July 01, 2008
Liked your point, moreso because at some level it is parallel to mine , which is to stay away from ppl who have a lot of problems in life....more often than not they dont wanna get rid of those and instead will eventually make u a part of their set of issues.
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