Work Dispositions

When I first started my journey to adulthood, someone told me that the strongest weapon a person has against the problem of losing motivation is their mind. If conditioned correctly, the mind is capable of achieving things that a physical defect would otherwise hinder a person from doing. My current role at IBM lets me explore my creative adn technical side, however, due to issues that can only be described as internal-politics, I have let myself dwindle and fall.

I now sit at the peak of my demotivation wondering what the next step is. Do I give in? Do I keep fighting against a system that has never accepted me? Do I accept the fate shown to me by the population that I currently interact with? Do I look to new avenues of creative and technical accolade?

I used to think that this war is something that would pass as the years went by and I realized my guile would take me where I wanted to go. It seems however that my guile is weathering because of my daily interactions and frustration with the general population I meet for my work. It also seems that people only want to get promoted and really don't care about 'what they do' as long as they take home a fat salary and are able to feed their family and take care of their other basic-human needs. What has happened to the people that care about technology? The ones who want to see technology take shape as an entity that will better humanity? The ones who wake up in the moring and go to sleep dreaming of ways to make their work better for themselves and the people around them? And last but not least, what has happened to the amazing concept of gratitude?

I could go on about the problems that I face but I am sure that most people working in the industry and city/country that I work in wake up every morning wondering why they are where they are and what they are going to do about the problems that they face on a daily basis.

As I said in my previous post, a war is coming but I wonder who is going to be around to fight the good fight when the time comes and who will perish because they just know that its easier to succumb to life's stringent and sometimes militant method of discipline.

 

Mood : Still confused
To-Do : Re-read The Art Of War
Music : Foo Fighters - Best Of You